5 months after

October 1st, 2008 by phoebsmeister

i am a complete turnaround of who i used to be…
i am gentler and kinder…
i try not to sweat the small stuff as much as i did…
i spend more time with people who matter…making time for things that really matter…
personal enrichment now weighs a ton more than career advancement…
i have time to read and rest…
i care about my well being and fitness…just as i do for others…
nearing my 30s, i realize i ain’t invincible after all…
i pray and reflect more…
i smile and laugh a WHOLE lot more…
my days are purposeful…each day well thought of and exhausted of its value…
i am more upfront, transparent and honest about myself and how i feel WHEN I FEEL…
i am less scared…and more trusting of the Big Guy’s plans for me…
yeah, i try to be less of a control freak now and just go with the flow…
i eat a ton LESS fastfood…and more greens and organic…
i advocate health supplements, colon cleansing and eating better…wheatgrass shots rock!
i still can’t give up caffeine…although i have been completely smoke-free for 9 months running…never looking back!
stress is waaaaaaaaay less!
life though seeming more difficult actually feels easier…
i am less self sufficient and independent and just a tad more accepting of help (the healthy kind) from family, friends and my Erick…
i am onto the kind of person i want to be…

thank God for my biggest blessing to date…my Erick…each day’s a helluva learning process…

it’s all mush and cheese but i’m seriously having a ball each day 

Moving Forward…

September 17th, 2008 by phoebsmeister

today i woke up, better than yesterday, emotions foregone.

it ain’t easy leaving behind what has been more than a home to me than a work place–eTel.
5.5 years!

A place where i have built the most awesome keeper friendships–Digz and Cam and those that have left long before…

Met the greatest mentors and even life coaches at some point–Mayo, JJ and Oli

And some of the most promising people i have had the privilege of grooming into leaders who just the same have taught back and developed me into the leader the i have come to be–28 coaches, my Argo shift and my Phoebe shift.

Moving forward from eTel was made extra uber super hard because of the hope that i would once again be able to reconnect and work with such outstanding people.

A great many thanks to 5.5 years!
Boss Mayo for always giving me that extra oomph i needed to max my potential. You have taught me leadership based on motivation, sincerity, dedication, ownership and developing others within eTel and beyond. You have seen me develop from start to finish, agent to shift lead. You know that I will always be happy I was in eTel and in Titan because of you. Remember when we cried buckets on that activity? You are the best and you have inspired me in sooo many ways in both personal an professional aspects. The greatest blessings beset the kindest people and I’m happy to see you exactly where you sooo deserve to be. Awabyu boss!

JJ–who made me have fun and savor every minute of leadership. You have empowered me through your trust and belief in my capacity. You have helped me shape people’s dreams
into reality. Thank you for the endless motivation, for the readiness to listen to every incessant rant fest. Now I’m raving remembering the good times with Argo and Sparta! You rock man! I’m marking your big day in my calendar. Wouldn’t miss it for the world.

Oli–your daily wacky antidotes were my UPper. Thank you for the mentoring sessions. Process and People. Thank you for teaching me sooo much in so short a time.

Mumsy Nata–for teaching me the value of integrity, hard work and sincere leadership. You will always be looked up to. I miss you to bits!

Kenny Wenny–for being a big bro in eTel.

Boss Jojo aka Direk–for listening to my long list of A… woes that one time i visited. It’s good to listen to people with great, sincere advice to give. It’s no wonder Makati rocks. The lead does too!

Digz–my bff, rant absorber, dream sharer and baguio craze partner in crime. The awesomeness doesn’t end here. Everyone knows how great a leader you are and how much potential you’ve got. Glad it’s finally out there.

Cam–my Alabang keeper! I’ve held on this long because of you.

Joeps–for listening and getting where i come from. I appreciate every effort. You are Alabang’s rock!

Kuya Bry–one of the best things that came of my Alabang stint was knowing such a wonderful life advice giver. I enjoyed the few good rockin’ bonding times while sipping on McDo coffee…heehee

Sants–my big bro in Alabang

My ARGO (Makati) Shift--You guys are the most awesome team of leaders and agents I have ever come across working with. Building and Leading a Team at its finest. The best days of my shift lead stint was spent with you guys!

My PHOEBE (Alabang) Shift–In my eyes, the best leaders and potential ones in Alabang are found in you guys! No BS! Keep on rocking!

Mama Rea–a person to look up to. An institution in eTel.

Kar–keep the faith!

My former sales coaches now leaders–Sheng, Donald, Mackie, Jase, Nessie, Jorky, Gboy, Paul, Papa Shaun, Aust, Aljo, Louis, Toni, Jane, Joyce, Rex, Meo, Met, Get, Yebs, Chino, Sahlie, Jackie, Sarah Joy, Lala, Carms, Mic, Edwin…hope i didn’t miss anyone!

My former Dione, Phoenix and Evo agents! Too many names to mention but you know who you are.

All my ex-programs: Samura I & II, Ninja, Nitro, Shop NBC, Cybertron, Excalibur and my last one–Titan.

Vina, Alvi and Lizette V. of the OD team! Rarities of eTel!

Chris Peabody and the 7 Habits Workshop that jumpstarted me as a leader.

BCH–the man behind the eTelecare success.

and not to forget Ate Pat of Makati and her just as cool sister in Alabang–the kindest keepers of eTel.

Moving forward but always looking back to where it all began.

day 2 of my fitness quest…071508

July 14th, 2008 by phoebsmeister

it boggles me why after 2 years of being sickey wickey with very poor
health prognosis have i decided JUST NOW to pick up my trusty old jump rope and my PT
ball and juggle ‘em into action…(no, nothing fatal, my friends…just
a nuisance  health ish that  may someday turn against me…now let me
not enumerate my call center poor health sweep)…

erick’s influence??? you could say that…i finally got that huge push that got me into action!

our objective: fitness and health…possibly live out our 80s
i’ve
been such a baby getting woozy and sickey on our short trips that we’ve
taken it upon ourselves to get on some basic detox measures for
starters:

suuuper minimize fast food…eat real food instead…
yakult everyday…seriously…
daily psyllium fiber intake
erick: wii sports and wii fit
phoebe:
300 jumps on a rope, 30 crunches and 20 push ups on my PT ball, a daily
dose of oatmeal @ work (vs calorie-packed bagel & cream cheese or a
chunky BLT)…whew! what a feat!
oh and limited sugar intake!>>my daily struggle

results:
erick’s starting to grow some arm muscles…yeeeaahh…and i am losing
some chub on me myself! or so i’d like to think!

can’t wait to post some more results here!

i am sooo psyched to trim down and start on a fit and fab routine!

quitting smoking months back was an awesome win but i bet this one would get me even bigger returns!

stay posted friends!

anyone else but you (you just gotta have a song!)

May 31st, 2008 by phoebsmeister


You’re a part time lover and a full time friend

The monkey on you’re back is the latest trend

I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple

We sure are cute for two ugly people

I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage

I want more fans, you want more stage

I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

You are always trying to keep it real

I’m in love with how you feel

I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train

I kiss you all starry eyed, my body’s swinging from side to side

I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me

So why can’t, you forgive me?

I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

Du du du du du du dudu

Du du du du du du dudu

I don’t see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

7

May 17th, 2008 by phoebsmeister

7 years of solitude…

it was an adventure inasmuch as it was a feat…

solidifying my identity…family…friendships…

buiding my own career from scratch…

financial freeeeeedom!

vacays and long leisurely walks (and jogs!) with myself…

meeting loads of interesting people…

exploring endless possibilities…

a few semi-relationships (otherwise known as failed attempts)…

friend zone bubbles…

kid crushes…

drunk out of my wits (the nick "zunigi" was born in bora)

i say when, i say where…

i call ALL the shots…

date whoever, whenever…BAIL out whenever…

shop till i drop…

10-hour slumber fest…

slave at work till i drop…

eat to my tummy’s content!

BFF vacays!

weep fests on rare down low moments…getting up on my own two feet (it’s sooo empowering)

4-hour undisturbed spa trips

looking fab…or drab…

all day breakfasts with digz over awesome life maps and men convos (why they do what they do! dang!)…

idle time…quiet time…

dissing the norms…

taking the plunge many times over…(and free-falling…flat on my*ss)

extreme sports galore…

prayer…

self-sufficiency…

independence…

anything goes…

bohemia!!!

my 7-year singlehood was just incomparably divine…

wouldn’t have had it any other friggin way…

more often that not, i do find myself missing my years of personifying and breathing bridget jones…

especially when i start missing someone so much or think out of my wits about the risks of free falling and exposing the raw me to someone again…no walls, just bare phoebe.

oh geez, this ain’t gonna be easy.

but THIS new status sure is worth the same ooomph i gave my 7 year solitude.

i’m soooo happy it’s ridiculous!

March 8th, 2008 by phoebsmeister

so this is what’s it’s like…

i ain’t telling just yet…

the thin line…

September 16th, 2007 by phoebsmeister

i almost crossed over last night…
and for the first time, i found it a huge feat to stay right…
because i know that i can fall if i allowed myself…
i’ve never done so…
and it’s too late now…way too late.

and i don’t know whether to regret or not, having gone against what i felt a year back…
too many odds, i thought then…
a good friend of mine, your fam, a good relationship (yours)…and the rest of the world…
i can’t help but think…what if i gave it a green light?
what if i leaped over the edge?
would i have at least doused this huge IF plaguing me right now???

what is this???
i don’t know…
all i know is it’s a huge no-no…

i have always stayed on the good side of things…
and i will…
i will just have to find a way now…
to undo this in my head…

but today, just today, just for 1 day, can i hang on to this???

everything…

September 9th, 2007 by phoebsmeister

i love…

traveling…the beach…idyllic mountain resorts…where i can be alone with my thoughts…or alone with someone who matters…
helping someone…anyone who needs it…
taking pictures…of everything essential, lil or huge…
good convos…that make me see the other side of things…
caffeine fixes…
spectacular reads…
everything dairy…
everything sweet…

these are everything i love and everything i miss…NOT by choice but by circumstance.

chasing cars…

August 11th, 2007 by phoebsmeister

i haven’t had a melancholic moment in a while…
till now…as i listen to chasing cars…
i am missing living on the edge…
falling like crazy…
smiling through a kiss…
breaking the rules…
talking through silence…
living the dream…

random thoughts of a tired ol’ hag

August 4th, 2007 by phoebsmeister

my dad’s birthday has come and gone without so much as a glimpse of phoebe…
one of my good good friends since fourth grade ree has left for Canada for good without so much as a caffeine chat with me…
i have been of late: a flaker…

since taking on my SOICship, i’ve been too busy thinking, fussing…about getting better…being liked…repsected and looked up to…
it’s a huge feat to be juggling my TL role to my coaches and my SOIC role to my TLs…
it remains a huge feat to be accomplished…
at the expense of my regular weekends @ the pine city, or breakfasts with anne (anne by the way has been my staple bessyfriend for the past eTel years…), or my sacred family time…
i miss not thinking…not worrying as much as i do now about everyone i lead…

mom’s getting better…i’m not though…
it’s been almost a year since i gradually got sickey (and sickier)…
i’m tired of caring about this too…

and all this make up the reason i have kept single…
because it just seems easier to care about 1 less person…

(yes, i have come to accept that it may not be for total lack of options)

yes that’s a sad thought…
and on some days, it does dawn on me that i could possibly end up this way for good…

i hope not…

i want what ree and A, JJ and sheng, ada and mikoy have…

it’s no secret i’d give anything…and mind ya I mean anything (except my lovely fam) to have something as solid and real…

i am far different than what most perceive…
i am in fact a softie…
i love stuff that keeps you on the edge…
i love bohemia…

i have 4 more months to go till the big 2-8…
let’s see what the rest of the year brings…